Hey everyone.

I've decided to stop using this account to post, I've created a new one: beautifulophiel So feel free to add that name if you'd like!

So this is my first photoshoot of the season; outside a con that is. I really hope to do more, so if you're interested in a private shoot, please let me know!



Photoshoot information:

Model: John G.
Date: April 11, 2007
Location: Double Trouble State Park, NJ

Really quick, since I'm late for work ;__; here are some BTS photos of Venus Rises!! Which we are almost finished filming Episode 1 !!!!


Rob (left) and Damien (right) as Demille and Sam working on some green screen goodness:







Rest of the crew acting super hard:

















More to come, but I am SUPER late for work right now ;________;

You are pathetic.

The fact you coward behind 4chan, and don't even have the balls to confront me about anything is hillarious. Let alone even make any effort to cover up that it was you. Some advice, grow the fuck up you pathetic peice of shit. I've been nice to you this ENTIRE time because I thought you were a friend, a good person.

But I was completely wrong. You are the worst of your kind; You're a backstabber, a hypocrite, and most of all, you're a fucking dousche bag, lame excuse for a walking, breathing human being. You're just like all of the people you claim to hate. Which is really fucking ironic, since one of the girls you claim to hate so much, and say you never talk to, and bash repeatedly on end, is someone you secretly suck up to online.

I am done with you. I do not need your negative, and most of all worthless energy in my life. You are gone, and you are dead to me. Forget I ever even knew you.

And you know EXACTLY who you are. So don't even waste the little oxygen you have left to try and reconsile with me.

What is this? A second Resident Evil photoshoot?


Why yes....Yes it is my friends. I wanted to redo the Resident Evil photoshoot from last year. Was there something wrong with the other shoot you ask? No, not really. I just wished I could have gotten more photos. The last photoshoot we did we didn't spend much time exploring the location. Which is what I would like to do this time! 

And this time, I want to be the photographer.

Now for when the shoot will be, it depends. It could either be early spring, or early fall. Here are the pros and cons of shooting in either weather:

Early Spring:

Pros: 
- It'll be warm
- There still wont be too much in the way of 'greenery', i.e.- plants will still be somewhat dead to add that erie isolated atmosphere.
- There are no festivals going on in the early spring; at least none that I know of
- It'll still be too early for 'tourists' to be swarming to the location
- We could have a nice spring picinic afterwards if it doesn't get too late
- The sun sets later during the spring, so it'll give us plenty of time to have a relaxed shoot

Cons:
- It's quite early to ask anyone who doesn't have a completed costume
- Plant life might start blooming by the time we have the shoot. Which isn't too bad, but the whole place is supposed to look 'dead'.
- There might be spring festivals going on. But I can always call ahead of time for a schedule.
- When the weather gets warmer, people start to come out of their homes. So it might get a little swamped in warmer weather.

Early Fall:

Pros: 
- The fall always holds beautiful vibrate colors which show up awesome on film.
- With the colder weather setting in, most people don't want to go outside
- Plant life will start to die and add an erie tone to the atmosphere
- This will give people plenty of time to think of what character they would like to do, and to get a costume ready.

Cons:
- It might be a little colder, but that's what sweaters and jackets are for
- They hold fall festivals at the park, but again, I can get a schedule to see when they're being held.
- The sun sets earlier in the fall, so we'd have to get there early


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So these are the options; if you're interested in going, please let me know what you think!! I will work this shoot around everyone's schedules. For those of you who went to the last shoot, you'll know there will be tons of food, beverages, possibly some alcohol (Thanks to Chris, hahaha), and a place to sleep if you come over the night before.

If you do come over the night before, we will have the entire house to ourselves! Like last time, I encourage everyone to bring their own video games, movies, etc. And this time I will NOT hide in my bedroom trying to fix a half assed Ada dress before the shoot. XDD I promise this shoot will be 20x more fun then the last one!! So please please please, if you are willing to come please come!!

Also, WE NEED ZOMBIES!!!! Last shoot was fun and all, but we only had two Ganados, which didn't even get used in most photos U__U. One being my dad of all people, lol XDD So if you have any friends who would like to be zombies, PLEASE invite them!! I want more then just two zombies for this shoot!!

This is one of the many many photoshoots I would like to do. My best friend Matt (Neospike) was kind enough to let me take photos of him in his Wesker outfit at Katsucon.

Quick story: This photoshoot took place at Katsucon 13 on Sunday. I actually stumbled upon this location the day before while on my Selene photoshoot with Deathcom. We accidently found it while searching for a quicker way to get back into the hotel from outside in the courtyard. We wanted to take photos, but it was time for the masq and he needed to be there to film it.

On Sunday, Matt and I were waiting for Biku and Danii to come back from the Dealer's room, so to take a quick break from the busy con, as well as get some fresh air, we walked out to the courtyard. I looked to see if the location I saw the day before was still unlocked, and to my suprise it was. When I asked Matt if I could take photos, he happily agreed, and this is the end result! I hope you enjoy them :D

First, shoutouts! If I miss anyone...please forgive me ;___; the con really made my headspin it was so busy lol!

** Also...For some reason this post looks quite funky when I post it. Sorry about that for those of you who can see; I tried fixing it three or four times, and it's not changing...so I gave up haha XDD **

</a></b>biku_chan007 - Do I really even need to say anything? You seriously helped me SO much!!! Not only did I have a bloody fantastic time with you...but you seriously helped in teaching me how to be more relaxed and really enjoy moments rather then stress and worry about things! *Hugs* I love you SO fucking much, you have no idea!!!

</a></b>danii_girl - All I have to say is "DOUBLE STUFFED OREO!!!" LMAO XDDD Holy jeebus I had a glorious time with you! You are SO freakin adorable...and I seriously can't get enough of you. And thank you so much for helping me break out of my shell, and learn to live it up; Especially at the rave XD

</a></b>neospike - Matt....You seriously made my weekend. Not only did you spoil me beyond belief, but you took the upmost care of me; And some how you managed to not even break a sweat while doing so. I love you so fucking much, and this weekend meant everything to me. So sorry I couldn't go skiing with you, but I really did need to go home and rest. And again, thank you SO so so so SOOOOO much for helping me with the Selene costume...I didn't want to take it off at all during the con...hell...if I could I would have slept in it...but then I would have become a smelly otaku. And noone likes a smelly otaku XDDD
</a></b>amazonmandy - Mandyyyyy!!! OMFG I had such a BLAST hanging out with you this weekend!! Sorry my phone was being retarded, I know you tried calling, but I either didn't get service, or couldn't hear it ring :( Thank you so much for taking us out to lunch...It meant so much to me, and I really really appreciated it! And I wish I could have said goodbye to you before you left on Sunday :'( I am so so so so soooo sorry I didn't get your message in time! But I am positive we will see each other again and be able to hang out and have a blast!! Also, thank you SO much for the drawing, I framed it and put it in the center of my Lara collection :D I showed my parents and they thought it was official artwork I bought at the convention, lol XD

</a></b>element_kun - I had such a blast meeting you and dancing with you at the rave. It's a sad thing our meeting was so short :( But I know for a fact we'll see each other again sometimes down the road :D And you must cook me pancakes!! haha
</a></b>hagiel - o___0 you are so frigging gorgeous...and I LOVE your accent!! Hehehehhee! It was so great to finally meet you in person, and I'm so sad I never got a chance to get photos with you :( Well...we got Charlie's Angels poses together in completely random and sexy cross over group photo, lmao!! Which I totally can't wait to see how they came out XDDD

</a></b>sailormoon- Eeeeee!!! You are SO FUCKING CUTE and holy shit it was great seeing you again :D You look better then ever, and hopefully next time we'll be able to get photos together (aside from the crazy cross over group photos we randomly took XDD lol)

</a></b>neoangelwink - OMFG I LOVE YOU!! It was SO great seeing you again, and jeebus woman...do you ever age? Seriously... You look like the day I first met you *is jealous* lol XD And omg *squeals* Your ring is SO beautiful, and sorry I started to cry when you told me...it's just it's so beautiful to know you're so happy. And I still remember the little Carrie from back in highschool, it's so weird seeing you al grown up (even though you're older then me, lmao XD) And sorry I never got a chance to buy one of your hats...Everytime I went to go buy one I kept forgetting either my money or my badge ;____;

</a></b>loudnbothered - It was great seeing you again too! Even though it was pretty briefly, but I hope you're doing great, and you better be treating my Carrie like a queen!! lol :D

</a></b>ngmaster- Baaah!! What was this 'suprise visit' eh?! hehehe, it was great seeing you too!! Sorry I kind of spilled my milk on your camera lmao XDDD I wish I could have stayed and chatted more...but Sunday morning our room was a complete disaster, and we had to clean up and check out by 12...which totally didn't even happen XDDDD hahahaa

</a></b>shadow_sasuke - I still can't get over your new little 'toy' it's even more awesome in person! And sorry to hear about all the stress you were going though :( I really wish I could have helped...but I still hope you had a great time, because you looked fucking awesome as hell!!!!

</a></b>kev- It was great seeing you again! And thanks for the compliments ^__^ Though I felt quite silly since I was not wearing any makeup and I was wearing my pajamas still lmao XD but you looked awesome, and I'm really excited about the Resident Evil photoshoot, and I really hope you can make it :)

</a></b>- You look fantastic! And jeebus you can dance *is jealous* lol XD
</b>snoozeberries - So umm...yes...You are the sex...And it was so much fun to meet you :D I still wish I could have met up with you guys in time for Sailor Moon photos...but my ADHD kept kicking in, and I kept getting distracted lmao XD

So yes...for anyone who I had missed, I'm sorry XD It's not that I don't love you, it's just that my brain is severly fried right now, and I really need to go lay down and rest.

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Also, I did one private photoshoot with Matt, which I will be posting later tonight. So expect photos!!

I have a question for all of you in internet land...Does anyone want to be in a photoshoot?


As of lately I've gotten so obsessed with photography...well...I've always been obsessed with photography, modeling, and fashion. But I've never done anything about it. So far I have about 3 or 4 people who want to do photoshoots with me, so that's good. And it could be of anything as well. It could be cosplay, out of costume, anything. If you've had any ideas as of lately and would like to do them, I would love to take photos of you :)


The only concern is as of lately my schedule has been super tight, but I would work around your schedule. And say if I had a shoot in mind near my house I would reimberse you if you had to travel etc. I just got a new camera, which is very very nice... After the shoot, I would give the model(s) a CD of all the photos taken that day; And possibly other things as well as a thank you for giving me your time.


Now I don't have much in the way to show you my work. I've been extremely busy and have not had time to go all out and take thousands of photos...But here is what I can show you:


http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/47322735/


http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/46664763/


These are mainly the only new photos I have taken on my new camera. They're not much in the way of 'artistic' seeing as these are mainly snapshots...But I have so many ideas for photos that are just SCREAMING to get done, and I will literally go insane if I do not take them...So if anyone would like to do this, let me know!!

Ok people! I have a question!


Does anyone going to Katsucon still need a room?


I've got a room in the con center which needs more people! So far (I think) Biku and Danii-chan are rooming with me. You would need to help me with the money, but the more people there are, the less money it'll cost everyone.


So please! If you, or anyone you know needs a room, let me know!

What is this? Actual footage for Venus Rises?


Hehe, enjoy some behind the scenes footage:













This, of course, is not the quality of the real film we're using. This was recorded on a regular hand held camera to document our progress and post online to show viewers we're actually working on it. We're working on episode 1 right now, and just finished the interspace episode. More to come soon :)

I just wanted to say thank you to the people who read my last post and were there to comfort me.

As of lately, I've been overwhelmingly busy, and this year started off horrible. I'm rarely on the computer, yes, I leave it on...But most of the time I'm always out either working, or filming. For those of you who may not know, I work 6 days a week. And the rare chance I get a day off I'm filming Venus Rises. That's not the problem really...

For those of you who may not know, yesterday morning at 5:14am, my beloved grandmother passed away. She spent a week and a half living her last days with us in a hospital bed. She was in a lot of pain; both her lungs were punctured, and the cancer had spread throughout her entire body. I didn't get to see her that much due to the fact I had been working so much, and when I wasn't working I was filming. But I did take off a few days before she went, and got to spend time with her. Though it was extremely difficult, because the last few days I did spend with her, she was so drugged up she couldn't even speak.

After she died yesterday morning, I walked in the room and saw her laying there, she looked so peaceful just like she was sleeping. I panicked though, because this was the first time I had even seen a human die...She was my second mother; she raised me for the first few years of my life while my mom and dad worked two jobs to support the family. I loved her so god damn much, and I felt like I had died when I lost her.

On top of that, I have to go into surgery for my cancer ASAP, and I just found out my mother has a brain tumor. And to make matters worse, the tumor is on a very sensitive part of the brain, and if they were to operate it could leave her mentally challenged. Now the icing on the cake is the fact that now I may have to get a restraining order on Manny because he's a fucking psycho. Picture this...You've broken up with your significant other; and the reason why you ask? Because they were clingly, whiny, selfish, egotistical, would go into jealous rages if you talked to another male (even if they were a close friend), controlled you, and tried to mold you into something they wanted you to be. Ok, now after imagining that, imagine you're blissfully sleeping in your nice warm bed, far away in la la land dreaming of marshmellow clouds and furry bunnies...And the next second you awake to your dog psychotically barking and growling. You open your eyes to see your ex, sitting on the far end of the bed, just staring at you with a cold hard stare that screams "If you so much as move too fast I'm going to stab you" look. Then, after being scared shittless, I got up and said "what the hell are you doing in my house?!" And as he just sits there, staring and smiling psychotically, my father tries coming in the room to see what all the comotion was about. And to my suprise, Manny had locked the door on my father, who in the end ended up almost breaking down my door...

So as you can see, I haven't had much time or energy to be online or do anything...I feel bad I've lost contact with a lot of you, and I know I sounded bitter in my last post. But to be honest, I am turning bitter because my life is being engulfed by negativity...And the other night I thought I had a true friend who could be there for me, talk to me, and I could open up to. But they just didn't seem to care or want to even hear it. I felt betrayed, and that's why I wrote what I did...Even a simple "I'm sorry to hear that" would have helped, but I didn't even get that, all I got was a cold shoulder.

I write this with tears in my eyes right now, but for anyone I have ever hurt, or ever made feel lonely...I am SO sorry.... I know Scott wont read this, and Sarah you might...But I am SO sorry for the pain I caused you two, I'm so sorry to Scott for all the horrible negative things I said to him. I'm sorry to Lori for ever bashing you way back at Otakon with the whole Luis incident... I mean, that was years and years and years ago, but you're a good person, you really are. And I'm so sorry for ever saying a negative thing about you; we were so young... And I'm sorry to Jesse for never talking to him, even though you've made thousands of attempts just to see how I've been doing. And to Biku and Danii, I love you two SO much like my own sisters, and I feel bad because I wish I would visit you more and involve myself in yours lives more. And to David Ng, I'm so sorry I don't talk to you more often, you're such a fantastic friend...Even if we were to just hang out one day and go out to eat or something would make me so happy. I always felt bad the only time I ever saw you was for a photoshoot -- I never want you to think that's the only time I want to see you.

You all have been very sweet to me, and with my grandmother's passing I've realized how special life is. And I've also realized it doesn't matter what happens in your life; because as long as you have your friends to be there for you, well, that's all you'll ever need to be happy.

So I want to start directing short films. And no...I don't mean crappy little home movie type films with bad actors and crappy cameras. I want to put 110% into them. Anyone want to help me? I'm saving all the money I can right now for a really good camera and possibly a mic. And I want to direct, I don't want to act in it...But if anyone would like to help, aka pitching ideas, if you want to act in them, or even help out cash wise, please do help.

This isn't going to be some shotty little side project, like I really REALLY want to try my hand at directing. Even if it's a short film no longer then 5 minutes. I'd rather have a brilliant and amazing short film that's only 5 minutes long, then a crappy drawn out boring full length film.

I have it all planned out in my head, I just need to get it on paper, and eventually get it on film, then into the editing room. If anyone were to help out, I wouldn't be able to pay you...But I would be able to supply you with food, shelter, and if you did any commuting, I could pay you back for gas and tolls etc. It'd be a very limited budget, but it has to get out there. I'm tired of always coming up with great ideas, then letting them collect dust on the shelf. If anyone were to help out with story ideas etc. You'd get the copyright to it, I would never claim it...actors/actresses would get exposure, and in the end everyone will benefit from it.

OMFG!!! 



SQUEE!! I've actually been put on IMBd!!! :D

Here's the direct link:

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0472205/

OMFG!! I was in a god damn movie with Cillian Murphy and Lucy Liu....I think it's finally starting to hit me now XDDDD lol

Resident Evil Photoshoot Update:

I talked to the director and told him I couldn't film on the 22nd of October. Which means I have the day off, so that means the photoshoot is still on. Problem is, I'm more then likely filming that saturday.  So I need to know who's coming up the night before, and whether you're driving, taking the bus, or the train. This way I know when to leave on Saturday to pick anyone up, and/or meet anyone. Normally filming gets done at around 4:30 - 5, though it may vary whether we're filming a fight scene etc. 

So the photoshoot is still deffinetly on for October 22nd. So please, I need to know when everyone is coming a.s.a.p, and a round about time they'd be arriving.

Resident Evil Photoshooty Updatey Goodness:

Ok so I thought I'd ask anyone going to the photoshoot a quick question -- Since we're all going to be in a really kickass location, and since we have a lot of awesome characters who will be there, is anyone interested in doing a little short film spoof on the series?

Now this, of course, does not mean a full length thing, or even a 5 minute thing. Just some really funny clips I could put together to make a short movie. And yes, I know we're going for a photoshoot, so this is also just in case we have some time left over, or in between.  It should be really fun, and seems like a cute idea ^^ I have a program, not Windows Movie Maker, that allows me to edit clips and what not -- I bought it a while ago when I had to make a movie for a school project XD it was a lot of money, and I'd really like to put it to some good use as well lmao

So if you're for it, leave a comment! Remember, it all depends on how many people would like to do it, and if time allows it... I've already talked to a lot of people going, and they seem to want to do it as well!!

Also!! I almost forgot to mention! If you want to bring your own camera, or a personal photographer feel free to! So far we have David Ng as our main photographer, and I believe CHris said he wanted one of his friend to come as a photographer as well.  Just remember, my house is somewhat tiny -- no two stories, just one -- so sleeping space is somewhat limited unless you don't mind sleeping on the floor. But I do have a ridiculous amount of blankets, pillows, comforters, and even a blow up matress haha XDDD Which also reminds me, if you have any friends or know anyone who would like to tag along and be a zombie PLEASE invite them!! I want some zombie action going on in le photoshoot, lol XDD

Ooh yea before I forget:

Is anyone coming by train or bus? Because if you are, yes I will pick you up as well as drive you back to the station ^^ so no worries about that! Also, does anyone have any entertainment ideas for the people coming down the night before?  I have an XBOX360, but I only have the new Tomb Raider game for that, does anyone own the game Dead Rising? That looks like so much fun!! Though I may be getting it soon... I also have a PS2, so if anyone has any games they would like to bring feel free to! As well as any DVDs, music, or other goodies to bring. 

OOH!! Also, anyone have a preference for snacks? I'm going to go food shopping the day before, is anyone allergic to anything specific? If you could, you don't have to now but it'd be nice, make a list of what you'd like me to get :P I just want this all out of the way now so that when the time comes I'm not running around in circles lol! That and I don't know about you guys, but I'm so excited for this photoshoot!!! :D

So yes, that should be it for the updatey goodness...